I never looked for easy projects, always chose the hardest path. I took pride in winning. Many of them never paid off, but I never wanted to quit. Never gave up on myself and my dreams.
I guess that's the problem. The time has come, how I dreaded it always, that everybody will see and say, poor thing, she tried so hard, fought all the way, and what for?? This??
Nothing, absolutely Nothing!! No emotions, No answer, lack of communication, let alone language barriers. It's hard at my age, I always knew, I'm not mentally numb anymore, I'm fully aware of my surroundings, what people are thinking, commenting, and why not?? Everybody can have their opinion, I have pretty strong opinions myself, but I choose not to engage with people who are lost and depressed.
I let out my frustration on you instead, because I felt like I had a right to it. Things have changed, venting doesn't solve my problems, and I always knew it would happen sooner or later. The same old story being repeated. I CAN'T BECAUSE I HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES.
Always the same scenerios, there are no wrong decisions in life, it's always about priorities, and I came to realize the more we see lives of others, the more we lack focus on ours. Nobody will come to pay for your groceries, and even if they did, I wouldn't accept it, that's the kind of person I am. PRIDE!!
So from now on, there are no complaints, just work, not stopping, I have a long way to go, my goals require working my 🍑 off. And I'm not even kidding.
PS
I Love you
K.
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