Sorry, I was busy fighting the snakes around me. By that I mean, I think I have already explained it. I don't want to complain anymore. I see Blockades every where because, a lot is going on without my knowledge. Now I suppose it's for the best.
And you Sir? How was your vacation? Your silly bribes are not enough for me. But then I thought, having a girlfriend like me is already a bigger problem. GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL. 😄
How I enjoyed living alone. The amount of stimulants I deal with everyday is seriously off the hook. Oh my innocent soul, just can't take these kind of burdens. At least I don't worry about my business Empire. Because I don't have one. 😆
I'm laughing because, that's the truth. all we complain about are actually small problems. There are people who go through a lot more than this. They have such beautiful patience. Life is funny though. What right do we have to complain?
I see that I talk about all the random things, and not the things that actually bother me. I am used to it now. I want to say things, but not all things. Things that portray me as a weak person. No I would never want that. Even with the man I love. And it is not about Trust. It was because, I was left on my own a long time ago. And I have decided not to complain about that either.
I do think often, how different will things be, If I was a different person. I think about it a lot. And I told myself Why?? We have enough problems to solve. The facts say, that I can not solve them either. And I never asked for your help because, I just can't let a man be the hero in my life. I just can't give men that power over me. It was always me, I am the Hero.
Even though I know, you can do it, you have done that before for others. But not Me. It is just my defense mechanism. It's hard to decode for a Man. We are not the same, you don't have to understand that either. At this point I have no expectations from people around Me. I have had enough disappointments already.
I only wish to make things easier for others, that includes you too. That is why I disappear from the scene often, thinking you have a difficult life too. I hope you find your solutions soon.
Love always
Kx.
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